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March 24, 2014

So much hope

I'm feeling so hopeful today. More hopeful than I've felt in a really long time.

Our appointment went really well with our doctor on Friday. In fact, way better than I ever could have imagined. I was so nervous before meeting with him, not knowing quite how the consult would go, and what kind of financial numbers, statistics and advice would be thrown our way. We want so badly for this long period of waiting to be over. I've wondered for so long how it would feel to be pregnant, to have a little life growing inside of me. But now I feel like we could be nearing the end of our journey. Our doctor thinks the outcome is "extremely positive," and the statistics are in our favor -- you know, considering my uterus looks "beautiful" and all (ha!) and my egg reserve numbers are high. I am so thankful for both. We're hoping and wishing and praying this summer, after over 2.5 years of waiting, we'll finally have a little baby-to-be to talk about.

You've probably already guessed, but we've decided to take the plunge.

Beginning in May, we're throwing a wad of cash at my uterus in hopes of making a baby via IVF. 

To make a long, (probably boring) story short, our doctor recommended we go the frozen cycle route vs. a fresh cycle of IVF. A frozen cycle gives us the best chance of conceiving, but it's longer than a fresh cycle, which typically takes about a month, start to finish. A frozen cycle lasts about three months: the first month involves several rounds of drugs, growing, monitoring, and harvesting my eggs. The following month the eggs are kept in a lab, frozen, while I take the time off to get my uterus in tip-top shape. The last month involves insemination and --fingers crossed-- a positive pregnancy test. I've left out a ton of details and I'm new to all of this, so I hope I explained all of that correctly. But that's the process in a nutshell. If you're curious, you can read more about IVF via my doctor's website, here.

We hate that the process takes so long, but in the grand scheme of things, what's a few more months of waiting? We've also decided to take April off to sort through our finances and schedule last-minute appointments for blood work, tests and other nurse consults. To get started in April meant we'd have to do all of this in about a week's time, which made us feel rushed. As much as I hate to add a fourth month to the process, the time is needed to get all of our ducks in a row. We'll feel less stressed this way, too, I'm sure.

It's a crazy journey James and I are about to embark on, but we're so excited. The two of us are so incredibly hopeful, and while half of me is trying to protect myself from getting hurt, the other half is smiling from ear-to-ear, so happy that our prognosis looks this good. 

Thank you for following along and cheering us on. Fingers crossed we'll have something big to cheer about later this summer! 

Have a great start to your week -- there's lots to be thankful for today.

Art by Adam JK

12 comments:

  1. I've got everything crossed for you, Natalie! IVF is what worked for my husband and me. You are at a GREAT clinic. I promise, the shots are not that bad--very tiny needles. It's just the first one that's the hardest. So glad you are feeling hopeful again!

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    1. Thanks so much, Bethany :) We are feeling really positive right now, and we're hopeful this is going to work! I've given myself a couple of shots during the IUI process, and I have to say, I'm not looking forward to giving myself so many more -- eek! I think it's safe to say that by the end of this I won't be scared of needles any longer. Thanks again for your well wishes. xo

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  2. One more thing since it's tax season and all: we were able to write off our IVF (and all the other stuff before IVF) on our taxes. It made the sting of the expense of IVF a little more bearable when we got a good tax return. Just an FYI.

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    1. Oh yes! We will be saving every receipt for tax time next year. It's funny how things work out, because we're starting this process post tax return this year...AND James will get money from the PTO he hasn't used over the last few years. He is changing jobs this month (another big, positive life change for us), and this PTO payout couldn't come at a better time. Thanks for the advice! Really, if you think of anything else, please e-mail me. Every little bit helps. xo

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  3. Best of luck, Natalie! I hope the process is quick, painless, and successful!

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  4. wonderful news! lots of luck to you both!!

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  5. Ohhh good luck! I will be keeping you in my thoughts...:-)

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  6. I will be praying for you and thinking of you as you embark on this journey! I am hopeful for you and cannot wait to share in your joy :) Sending love from afar! xoxo

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    1. Thanks so much, Ashley! You are the best.

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