1993 birthday girl. I think I need to find that tiara for tonight. Fast-forward 20 years...
It's my birthday! Today I'm the big 3-0. I'm going to be honest, this post was a difficult one to write. Not because I'm down about my birthday -- because I'm not (really -- I promise). But 30 is weird for me, you guys. And it's hard to put into words exactly why I feel this way about it. I think it's because I always thought of 30 as the age I would have everything all figured out -- like, everyone is a grown-up and has found their way by the time they're 30, right? ...well, no, not really. (But does anyone ever feel like they have it all figured out?) One of my favorite bloggers said it best when she pointed out that these years are just straight up odd, especially on a social level. Everyone is going in different directions. And thanks to social media, we know what everyone else is doing, and it's hard not to compare yourself to others. All of that comparing can make you feel really "off" about the path you're on sometimes.
A friend recently told me that she's choosing to look at this new decade as a clean slate. I like that. Yeah, my 20s were about trying to find my way -- dating: happiness and heartbreak, graduating from college, moving around, losing my first big job, taking a few risks and going freelance, meeting James, getting married. I wouldn't change any of it -- not even these past couple of years, which have been challenging at times. I'm learning as I go. Growing. Becoming the person I'm supposed to be. And my 30s are just going to be a continuation of this self-discovery. Who knows what craziness this decade holds? The future is kind of exciting that way. I want this year to be all about pushing myself creatively, growing my business, being a great friend, daughter, sister, wife, and eventually -- mother. I just want to make things, love my people and be happy. It seems simple enough. I'm hopeful that this year and all the rest going forward will hold more joy than anything else. And I hope I'll learn a few more things about myself along the way, too.
So, after feeling weird about this birthday for the last several months...I've decided to embrace this new year and welcome it with open arms (with a few celebratory drinks...and a slice of cake, too, of course). This is forever my birthday motto. Who knows what 30 has in store for me? I can't wait to find out.
Photo by Kaitie Bryant
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